a week ago, today (Labor Day) my sweet, loving, sassy, amazing grandmother lost her cruel battle with dementia and Alzheimer's. 
We knew the day was coming, and we knew it was coming soon.... But nothing can prepare you for that phone call. 
It's been a really rough week & weekend for my family but I am so glad we were able to all head up to Boston this weekend to celebrate my Nana's life. 

Leading up to our trip, I'm not entirely sure I have ever had so much anxiety in my life. 
& that's saying something because 99% of the time I'm a total basket case. 
I was taking Abigail on her first plane ride & I was flying solo. 
No Billy.
We didn't buy her a ticket, so she would be flying on my lap, which also meant since we weren't checking bags, she didn't get one and I would have to pack all of our stuff into ONE carry on bag and one diaper bag. 
Holy shit show. 
To prepare, I packed a pantry full of food, 14 pacifiers, Tylenol and an arsenal of stickers. 
And none of it worked. 

She slept for approximately 20 minutes of the 3 hour plane ride and was jolted awake as soon as the lady next to me popped open her can of coke and bag of Doritos. 
It's worth mentioning that Abigail repaid the favor later by dropping a cardboard book on the lady's toes 4 times and kept changing the channels on her tv. 

For the next 2 hours and 40 minutes we played a game of 'up, down, sit, stand, scream, cry, laugh, eat & watch mama cry'. 
So, my advice to any of you mamas out there thinking about taking a 16 month old on a plane.....
Just don't do it. 

Once we got to the hotel, Abigail was exhausted (imagine that!!) so we ordered a quesadilla and hit the sack.

Despite the disaster of a plane ride, she was my favorite little travel buddy ;) 

We spent most of our weekend visiting the nursing home my grandfather is currently in. 
We are in the process of having him moved down to Florida, so fingers crossed he will be here soon! 

Saturday was such a tough day for him. 
He didn't end up going to my Nana's service because it was just too much for him. So we visited before and after. 
Seeing him light up around his great grandchildren was enough to make my heart melt. 

He had the best time hopping my child up on sugar.
 What are Grampies for, if not M&M's right?! ;) 

When we visited after the service, Abigail brought in a single flower from one of the bouquets to give to her Gramps. It was such a sweet moment that I will never, ever forget. 

This pretty much sums up our relationship. 
Him looking at me funny and me making him laugh. 

My all time, very favorite picture. 

Leaving Boston was so bittersweet this time around. 
The next time we see my grandfather, he will be in Florida. But it was so, very difficult to say goodbye this time. We all miss him so much and can't wait until he is here to be able to see everyday. 

The plane ride back was a little bit better, but still a mess. 
Her ears hurt her this time and she just isn't down for being contained to a small space for 3 hours. 

Maybe never next time.. 

I love you, Nana. 

Thanks for sticking with me over the past week, guys. I totally neglected this space while I took some time for myself and prepared for our trip. I have a lot of catching up to do and that's what I'm planning on for the next few days. 
And then, we are heading out for a REAL vacation on Thursday! 



  1. I can tell you right now Jen Nana is so proud of you! What an amazing picture you described of this week. It was perfect! I will reread this over and over!

  2. I feel your pain a out the plane ride with a toddler, I did it in June and NEVER again! Sorry to read about your Nana :( my condolences to you and your family!

  3. Just Beautiful Sweety, Thank you